It’s been a while.

It’s been a little while since my last post. That’s mainly because I got a job! I also got two callings in church! Talk about craziness. I now work at a salon as a guest coordinator. I love it there! Everyone is so kind and it feels like a family. Somehow I just fit right in. It was amazing. There’s no drama, no back talk, no nothing! I work with some pretty amazing people. I am so grateful to them.
As for my callings, well you are looking at, (reading at?), the new Relief Society teacher! In fact I already taught my first lesson this past Sunday. I feel like it went pretty well. My talk that I had to teach on was called Spiritual Whirlwinds by Elder Neil L. Andersen. If you have the time, go read it! It’s a wonderful talk. Though it mainly talks about one temptation that people have I decided, or rather, felt the impression to, talk about all of the temptations we could or do face. I felt bringing in all those temptations and talking about all of them would make people feel more comfortable and see what’s really out there. That all the temptations we face are difficult. But at the same time, that everyone goes through their own temptations and that we can always ask for help. Being that it was my first time I was extremely nervous! As most people would be teaching for the first time. Over all I must have done pretty well because quite a few people came up to me and told me how they really needed to hear this, or that I did an amazing job. It makes me feel good! I want you all to know that I am so thankful for your support and help, not just for my new calling but through my trials as well.
My second calling is Building Committee. Which simply put means I get to make sure the building stays clean. It might not be as exciting, but I can assure you it’s just as important as any other calling.
As for my life itself. I’m moving forward, slowly but surly. Some days are harder than others and I just want to cry. Other days I am motivated, feeling good, and want to work on my photography. I feel like for the most part it will be like this for the next little while. I have no one to blame but myself for it, but at least Diya has amazing parents that love her dearly and are able to provide for her. That’s really all I could ask for.
I do have a small thing I have to get off my chest though. There are multiple people lately who feel the need, or maybe they think it’s funny, to attack me verbally. I have even had someone, well two people, tell me that I should have just gotten an abortion. Do you really have to abuse me when I’m at my lowest? Please think about what you say before you say it. To anyone! Not just me!
I have no room for depressing, negative, and verbally abusive people in my life right now. It’s wonderful that we all have different opinions, and it’s even better to be able to share them! But when you are hateful and looking to get a rise out of someone it’s not right. I have no time for that and neither should any of you. I need to focus on myself and try to get my life back in order. If you can’t support me or feel the need to bring me down, I have no problem cutting off all contact with you. I’ve done it before and I will do it again.
Some of you are probably thinking, gosh, that’s so harsh and you just gave a talk to the congregation about forgiveness! Yes, yes I did. And I understand where that is coming from. You can still forgive people, and not be in contact any more. Sometimes you just can’t hang around or talk to people who are bringing you down. And that’s okay! That’s normal! But holding grudges and such is worse. I have chosen to remove people from my life so that I may continue to grow. This does not mean I don’t forgive them. There are some people you will have to let go of in order to move on with your life and grow. It’s as simple as that.


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